I have been beaten. I have been raped. I have been tortured. I have been abandoned. I have been broken. every day I wake up and I look at my body and I am ashamed. I am ashamed that I can’t offer more to the one that I love. I feel ashamed at this disgusting blob I call my body. So many unwanted hands have touched it. And that makes me feel like shit. I want to tear off every inch of my flesh and scrub it clean, but the shame doesn’t wash away. The pain doesn’t wash away. The feeling of inadequacy and grotesqueness does not wash away. Maybe I should just tear off my flesh and leave it in a pile on the floor. Throw it away like the trash that it is. maybe I should just welcome the abuse with open arms because its what I deserve. maybe I don’t deserve anything at all.
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carasala said:
Don’t lie to yourself like this. It makes me furious to think you should ever feel less than all the things you are. I wish you saw it yourself. “when you gonna make up your mind? When you gonna love you as much as I do?” you deserve more.
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feelfreemamacita said:
You have put into words what I have long been trying to say. Thank you.
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blargetyblarg said:
I feel the exact same way so often. If you want to chat let me know. I know it’s hard to talk to people who don’t understand and hard to find people who do, in my experience. <3
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